Another Year

I made a New Years Resolution to blog more often. Yeah, it really worked out.

Anyways but I am going to start doing it now, better late than never right?

Josh Turned a Year old Jan. 25th I cannot believe my little tiny baby is 1 year old already, he is walking, and trying to start talking. He says, momma, dadda, lj, and shakes his head no and ocassionaly we hear things that sound like Dog, and Cookie. And we are working on saying Na-Na for grandma.

Landon is still working for Weatherford and work has finally picked up it was really really slow there for a while and we were quite worried about finances

I just went back to school the middle of January and finally declared my major as an Elementary School Teacher. At the latest I'll be graduating in May of 2013 with my BA! I sure cannot wait.

Here are some pictures of what has happened since November :-)

Monkey's 1st Birthday

Thanksgiving

We took some handsome pictures

Christmas!!



My vent for the time being

First I want to say if you don't agree with me,,, awesome that's your opinon but these are mine and I am sick of holding them back and I am about to explode!!!!!

First... I am a formula feeding, disposible diaper, here is a taste of my food, sleep in my bed, not going to hold you 24/7 mommy.

I tried breastfeeding, it was not for me. It's hard, very hard, and I tried but it was not what worked for my family and I, because... I like my sleep to much, does that make me a bad mommy????

I was scheduled to be enduced 1 week before my due date, not for medical reasons but because I was done and needed to make sure that my husband would make it to our sons birth. Was I enduced? NO! Josh came on his own two days before. But apparrently this makes me a bad mom.

We DO NOT EAT ORGANIC!!! sorry but I was raised on non-organic and I turned out just fine, nice and healthy with no allergies!!!!

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I LOVE my cousin and am sooooo sick and tired of hearing people talk about her like she doesnt exist or is not there. She has made mistakes, she knows this but remember... ITS HER LIFE NOT YOURS....ITS HER BODY NOT YOURS.... so, before you go talking s*&# on her, look in the mirror and take a look at yourself!

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I am so sick of hearing people complain that they dont have money...then complain when they have to work...well in order to have money you have to work.

Also, what bugs the crap out of me is when people are struggling financially but, the woman (who it is 9/10) refuses to go out and get a job, because they want to be home with the kids. This bugs me more when the family is taking assistance...I  understand some people need assistance...I actually applyed for it when Landon and I were having issues.... People need it when both are working. However....DO NOT i repeat DO NOT complain to me when you are broke and cannot afford to go out and do something because you are too lazy to get up off your butt and get a job!!!!!!! McDonalds is hiring and well quite frankly, your children's health and making sure they have food on the table comes before your going out and buying toys.

for example, right now, Landon and I are tight on money right now, so I am in the process of looking for a job to help it not be so tight every month. When things get better I will go back to being a stay at home mom and student.

Updates...

It's been 2 months since my last update.

So what has happened??? how about pictures?

we actually have 2 teeth now!!!

went to our first hs football game

burned our hand

didnt want to wake up

and dressed up for halloween :)

Woah...

I cannot believe that it has almost been 7 mo. since my little boy came into this world. He will be 7 months old on August 25th 2010 at 4:19pm.

He is my little ball of energy!!!

Our milestones so far include, Smiling, Rolling over, holding our own bottle, sittin up for short periods of time, putting weight on our legs, squeling, laughing, giggles, knowing who mom, grandma, grandpa, dad, etc. is, and just in the last few weeks our little man has become an "inchworm" he is now offically MOBILE!!!!!!!! sooooo scary.

We love our baby food, we dont like green beans or peas, but we love everything else!!! We really love sweet potatos!!! We have moved up to Stage 2 foods and love Apple and Blackberries, and Oatmeal with Banana!!

I cannot wait to see how much he grows in the next few months he was only 13lbs 6.5oz at his last dr. appointment, but 27.5 inches long!

If i was patient enough I would upload some pictures!

The last 3 months

The last three months have been a rollercoaster ride. When Landon told me he wanted a divorce my whole world shattered into a million pieces!! I was a hollow shell... If you saw me just after Mike passed away... I was THAT bad. I just had a hard time and began working and getting things ready to go to Idaho to stay there and go to school.

Over the last three months I fully believe there was a higher power involved, Landon and I are back together, We just moved back in with each other Sunday night. It is still hard knowing he has the power to knock me down to that point.

Josh will be 6 months on Sunday, we are blessing him into the LDS church. My family will be here and so I'll have to get pictures!!

Josh is growing fast, he got sick so we had to take him in and at last check about a month ago he weighed in at 12lbs 3 oz.... so he still had not broke the double birth weight. We have started veggies and fruits and he LOVES them!!!!! He is trying so hard to sit up on his own, he giggles histarically at animals, smiles, rolls ALL over the place, scoots, holds his own bottle and best of all... we are ALMOST sleeping for a FULL night in our OWN bed!!! YAY!!!!

Escaping Aunt Kristen and Mommy!

My Sad Face

I LOVE squeky hunting with Grandma and Grandpa

Peaches are MmMm Good!

Cousin Rhett (10 Days) Joshua (5mo 1 day)

This is my Happy Face!!!

a not so happy ending

this last week has been hard for me. I found out thursday that my husband wants a divorce. it came out of the blue and i am shattered I am holding on by one single thread and his name is Joshua Michael. Landon may have broken my heart but he gave me the best gift ever a little piece of him named Joshua... this little boy is my world and my strength and I will do whatever it takes for him!!

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It has been a long few weeks.

We Finally have a new place that we are pretty much moved into we just have to make the jump from sleeping at my mom's to sleeping there, which will happen as soon as the bed is put together tomorrow night probably...might happen more like Monday ha ha ha.

It's been almost three months since Joshua was born, and he is growing up so fast, he is FINALLY starting to chunk out a little bit... and I am not feeding him on my schedule anymore I am letting him tell me when he wants to eat which is every 3 to 4 hours and is now up to 2.5 to 3.5 oz a feeding. He sleeps from 11 to 5 every night so I get around 6 hours of sleep a night then he crashes again till 7. But that is with him sleeping with me, which is coming to an end as soon as I get a baby monitor!! That could get fun and I could be REALLY tired when that happens.

Here are some pictures from the last few weeks.

This is Josh in his wagon he got from the Easter Bunny (Grandma and Grandpa A.) with his Elk piggy bank and his play bow.

Joshua loves the fire!!!! I am in SOOOO Much trouble when he gets mobile...His daddy was/is a pyro too!!

Today was a Fairy Tale

I thought it would be fun to take a moment and write out Landon and I's "Fairy Tale Romance" as many older ladies call it. I have been bugged and bugged and bugged to write this down....

I guess it really all started in December of 2006, I had my heart broken by someone I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with. Granted I was totally mistaken by this thought...I was only 17 at the time and well hey He was my escape from my mother and well I like to call it my "Senior Rebellious Stage". But it was a good time and I wouldn't trade it for anything now (I really wish we could be friends again...but alas I ruined that one *SUPID 17 YR OLD ME*) ANYWHO... Well I reconnected with a Friend of mine Michael T. Woodley from Evanston, we really got to know each other again and he became my best friend...wait no...a brother to me... like almost the twin brother I never had, even though he was a year younger than me. Well Heaven needed him more and he was taken from me, his family and friends February 24th, 2007. He was on his way home to Evanston after asking me to Prom both my senior and his Junior proms. I shattered into a million pieces I don't remember much... everything went by in a blur.. I dont remember much of his funeral I dont remember much of the next 3-4 weeks...it was school, work, home.. I was a zombie. Until one day I got told that my mother may have found me a date to prom... (CAN WE SAY FREAK OUT!!)... anyways, I was working one night when the phone rang.. my co-worker looks at me nad said "Someone wanted to know if you were working" of course the thoughts that ran through my head "OH CRUD I look gross, my hair is a mess, I have no make-up on, I am greasy, sweaty and just plain gross" The next day Connie comes to me and says that her son Landon would like my cell number... I gave it to her. I remember I am on my way to Evanston now...wait I dont remember ( I TOLD YOU IT WAS A BLUR THOSE WEEKS) but anyways.. Landon called me a few days later and asked me if I wanted to go to dinner to get to know each other better. I being a chicken didnt even called him I replied to his voicemail through the voicemail service... ha ha... and said sure lets do it. We met a few nights later for dinner at Los Cabos (this was my first real date, guy came and got me took me there and PAID for it). I was soooo excited. Next day I text him and said that I had had fun the night before and would like to do it again he agreed. So we went for a hike that night and sat up on a rock and just talked and watched the sun go down. We were nearly inseperable for the longest time. Finally prom came around and landon kissed me that morning (of prom we were out till 3am in Rock Springs ha ha) then after prom he was kissing me again.. I looked at him and said I am not going to be friends with benefits its either friends or a relationship choose. So the next night he took me up to the lake handed me a box opened it and it was a glass frog with a poem about princes and princesses... he asked me if he could be my prince... and since then its been a fairy tale!! Now we have a beautiful baby boy and been Married for two years!!!

Baths

Joshua HATES his bath time. I have tried about everything I can think of to make the time more relaxing for him. However, I am taking the last desperate attempt... I am buying a new baby bathtub. The one we have is all plastic and has a really annoying leg seperater (if that is what it is called) and I hate it because the only time josh is calm is when he is covered up to his neck in warm water and with this tub he has to have that stupid thing in the middle of his back to have the water to his neck which  akes him upset too! UGH.. I love water, so does landon and I would love to take Joshua swimming one day.. but if he doesnt like water Landon and I are in trouble because we are Water Babies!!! My favorite though is putting Josh in Towels.. I have about three hooded ones that I love... One is a dragon, a shark and a frog. Here are some pictures of my little man in his shark towel...

2 Months and Counting

Josh is now two months old! Well as of 3/25/2010 he is. It is amazing how just in two months how far they come and grow and the new things they learn to do.


Josh is smiling...cooing...giggling (sometimes I have only heard it once) ... and is awake much more everyday. We are currently almost sleeping through the night, we have 4-6 hour streaks every night. I am pretty lucky!!


We are getting family pictures done next weekend seems the only family pictures we have with all of us I am half asleep because I just delievered him!! And with Landon's work schedule its nearly impossible to get anything scheduled.


Landon got a promotion!! YAY he is now a Night Supervisor, means pay raise but he still has to work nights which is the worst part but it means he will one day get bumped up to Day Supervisor.


We are also looking at a few places to rent FINALLY!!! All of which we can have LJ in!!!


Easter is coming and the easter bunny has put together Josh's Easter basket.. It's ready to go! :) I'll take pictures of it Sunday morning with him in his easter suit!!!


Mother's day is coming up too... its crazy how fast this year is going by already!!!


Uh Oh little man is getting upset...gotta run!!

6 weeks ago...

6 weeks ago...

@ 4:19pm I was handed the most beautiful thing I have ever seen...

i saw my husband become a father

my whole life changed.

Its amazing how quickly the time goes by. I wouldn't change the last 6 1/2 weeks for anything. Josh is such a mellow baby. I am a very very lucky mommy and I know this. He sleeps for 4+ hours at a time at night and only fusses when he is sleepy or hungry and if he is sick.

He is starting to lift his head up more and more everyday, and one of those things every new parent looks forward to is that first smile...and oh boy.. His first smile came at 4:30am after two hours of being wide awake and mommy crying because I was soooo sleepy, he looked at me gave me this look like whats wrong and smiled the biggest toothless grin you have ever seen in your life... It made that morning all the more worth it!!!

He is growing up soooo fast I really cannot believe he is almost two months old already!!! He is my pride and joy and holds every little piece of my heart... well him and his daddy share it!!

I love both my boys!!!!!!!!

Now I am going to bed to get some shut eye before the little guy wakes up again in a few hours!!!

One Month Old

I cannot believe that my little guy is a month old today!! He is getting big and I cannot wait to see him grow!!

Labor and Delievery

I finally have a few seconds to sit down and write this down before I forget.

I was suppose to be induced Wednesday the 27th. Well all night Sunday night I had the urge to clean and clean some more, my poor 38weeks4day pregnant body couldn't do much though. I was having problems falling asleep and finally looked at the clock for the last time at about 1am.

3am comes around and I feel like I need to go to the bathroom. As I sit there I realise I am cramping up a bit...hmmm... thinking nothing of it I try to lay down... over the next hour the pain gets a little worse. I finally called Landon about 4:45 to tell him he might want to just be prepared to come home just in case and that I would call him after my appointment at 10:30 that day. Landon asked me to go to the hospital and I was in denial horribly in denial. I finally timed my contractions from 5 to about 5:45 and they were coming every 3-6 minutes and were :45sec to 1:30 long. I called my friend Val who took me to the hospital where I was admitted.

The nurse in L&D when I got there didnt think they would keep me because I could still talk through my contractions, and seemed ok. Well they did shift change and come to find out I was at a 3. They called my doctor who came in about 8am and let me know that they were for sure keeping me and that I could get my epidural because I was at a 4 at this time. So I called and let everyone know it was time to start heading for the hospital.

Epidural was NOTHING, it made me a pretty happy person. About 10am they came in and broke my water, in which they saw a little tinge so they let me know we would have a respitory person in the delievery room just in case. Everything slowed down for a couple hours long enough for Landon, my mom, and landon's mom to get there. I finally about 2 got the horrible urge to push, I was only at an 8. We were calling the nurse in every 15 minutes at this point to check me because the urge got worse and worse.

Finally at about 3 I got to push. While I was pushing they thermostat in the room broke causing the heater to be on full blast. So between the heater being on there was the Doctor, the L&D nurse, Respitory Nurse, Nursery Nurse, Anastesiologist, another nurse, my mom, landon and me. I wore out after about an hour of pushing. So the doctor decided to try the vacuum, which worked!! Otherwise I would have had to have gone to the C-Section to deliever him.

Joshua Michael was born January 25th 2010 at 4:19pm he was 6lbs. 11oz. he is the cutest little boy and very very laid back. He only cries when he is getting his diaper changed, and when we are changing his clothes. I am so happy that he is finally here and cannot wait to watch him grow up.

Inducement Jan. 27th

Inducement. Yes people are going to FREAK OUT ... My EDD is Feb. 3rd, while I would love to sit here and wait for Josh to make his apperance on his own I have some circumstances that some other mothers to be may not have. My husband cannot come home until A) I am in the hospital and STAYING which then he would have to wait to leave location which can take anywhere from immidetly to an hour and thats IF I CAN GET A HOLD OF HIM!!! or with the situation now B) Being induced, he gets to come HOME sleep in his own bed TWO nights before and we get to spend our anniversary together, and my strongest support will be with me through out it all.

No I don;t have a medical reason and I understand that the chance of C-Section goes up considerably, I have no doubt in my body to do what it needs to do. My doctor and I have gone over the risks I have done the research and my husband and I and my doctor have decided that it is in our best interest to induce.
If I have to have a c-section yes I will be upset, yes i will cry, yes it will suck major monkey balls but if thats what it takes to get my baby boy here healthy so be it!!

I understand women's bodies have been giving birth for all of time and that we can do it naturally, but really what was the death rate in newborns and mom's back in the day before all of the medical advancements? I personally am not willing to risk my life or my baby's life in order to have a "Natural" delievery.

This is NOT a bash on anyone who is for the all natural method or no epidural but for me... I am a 100% PAIN MEDICATION, HOSPITAL, type of a person. It's what works for me and I am SICK and Tierd of having to explain myself to people about my choices... My son is healthy, I am healthy, we have no reason to wait more than passed next Wednesday and we have no reason to take him next wednesday, however, he will be making his apperance and be in our arms by Thursday evening, Friday morning! I personally cannot wait!!! As I know my family can't either....

with that said... I LOVE MY BABY BOY, I LOVE MY HUSBAND and we are putting our full trust into the doctor that we chose for our care!

37weeks1day

So we are 37 weeks 1 day today. That means 20 days to go until February 3rd..

I went to the doctor on Tuesday and recieved the following news,

I was a fingertip dialated and 40% effaced.

So progress but not much....

We took a few seconds and decided that we will be setting an Inducement Date

at my appointment this coming Tuesday.

The Doctor won't take Josh any earlier than 39 weeks which is the 27th of Jan.

So as of right now, If I have my way Josh will be here no later than the 28th...

The good news is Landon has had it approved that as soon as he gets the call to come home

he gets two weeks paid off.. of course that is his vacation and Sick Time...but that is 2 weeks guarenteed that we will be a family.

I also will be at the end of that two weeks looking at what school, health and Josh's appointments

I will be going to Pinedale for a few weeks staying at my mom's so that I can look for a rental up there and have some help with Josh and Landon can be close as well.

So it's now a waiting game.. my favorite message

Dear Joshua,

You are now considered "Full Term" You are 37 weeks 1 day old

Mommy and Daddy are ready to meet you!!!

You are welcome to make your apperance anytime!!

Love

Mommy

36 weeks

There is progress going on!!! YAY! Doctor says all looks good.. I am almost at 1 cm Dialated (so like a 1/2 cm) and I am 20% effaced YAY!!!! Means there is something going on.. I have the all clear to go anytime after next wednesday, but will not be stopped if I go into labor this week.... its so exciteing and nerve wracking that we will have a little guy in our house as early as a week from now...

35/35

Can we believe it? I am now 35 weeks Pregnant with 35 days to go. I had an appointment last Tuesday (12/22) and Doctor Nowicki pretty much told me that I have the all clear to go into labor anytime after my 36 week appointment which is next Tuesday (1/5). Scary. However, it got me thinking about all the stuff I still have to do before Joshua gets here. I have gotten two things of the list done...the biggest one is just getting my house finished cleaned up..which will take me all of a couple of hours when I finally get the energy to get that done.

We also get to have fun next Wednesday if Landon gets it off, he gets to go have steroid shots in his lower back...oh joy, thank goodness I am not allowed in the room when its done (because they have to use xray equipment) so I won't be squirming and freaking out about the whole thing...although I really wish I could be there to support him like he has supported me so many times and is about to do the biggest support job of his life in a few weeks...

Apart from that there is really nothing exciting going on in the Wigginton household, we are just patiently (okay maybe not so patiently) awaiting the arrival of our little boy, so that we can finally see his face and love him more than we already do... so here is goes 35 days to go!!!

32 Weeks!!

Do you see that cute little face? I am now 32 weeks Pregnant, and quite frankly the last two weeks has been the hardest. I had a kidney infection, which is now thankfully cleared up. Then Monday I fell down the stairs after a snow storm, I landed on my butt, and elbow, which means I have a bruised tailbone and a bruised up elbow. I am extremely sore which makes it just so much fun trying to keep up on housework. But other than that Joshua looks amazing. We had an ultrasound Monday morning (before my fall) and he is measuring right where he should be and was 3lbs 1 oz at that time. However they gain anywhere from 1/2 lb to a lb every week now, I am suspecting he will be around 7 1/2 pounds myself, just my guess. He is in the vertex position so he is locked in and ready to go, although we still have 6-8 weeks to go. I have my appointment tomorrow and am interested to start talking to my doctor about labor and delievery, what I want, as well as care for Josh after he is born. I am getting more and more excited to meet my little man!! (I think he looks like his daddy!!!)

'Tis the Season

Friday...the 4th of December ALREADY!!! Goodness time has flown by. My bladder infection turned into a kidney infection so I am on antibotics until Wednesday then will get checked next Friday to make sure that the infection is gone, if it isnt then I will have to stay on antibotics until it clears up.
I am getting lots of christmas shopping done!! I have most everyone taken care of except my husband, mother in law, mother, and stepdad and two more nieces and nephews. I think I am doing pretty good and have taken care of most everyone else for less than what we spent last year! Which means christmas savings YAY!
We are 31 weeks and 2 days pregnant right now! Which means we have only 6 weeks till Josh is considered Full term and 9 weeks until our due date. I had my baby shower this last weekend and it was fun. I have TONS of outfits, and now we just need the little stuff like bottles, bath stuff, saftey stuff, and I just pick up a few of those items everytime I go to the store. I have one last ultrasound on Monday to see how big Joshua is and I sure cannot wait to see him again! My mom, sister and best friend will all be there which will make it all sorts of special because my sister has never been to an ultrasound!
Life is good what can I say! I love the holidays, although I wish we would get some snow!!

I am thankful for. .

I have a lot to be thankful for today!!! Monday morning I woke up at about 4:30am MST , with some horrible back pains, just thinking it was Joshua hanging out in my back we tried to get him to move. About 5:45 the pain went into my abdomen, and was so bad I couldn't stand up straight, let alone move to do anything. About 6:30 we made the call to the On-call doctor in Evanston and they said I needed to get to the nearest ER ASAP because it sounded like I might be in labor. I am in pinedale visiting Landon and family, so after the quickest trip to Jackson Hole ever made by anyone, even with the crappy roads I think we made it in like 45 minutes if not less, I wasn't paying attention. I was admitted into the ER where they blew three veins trying to get blood and an IV line going. They finally got an IV in and started and I went through a bag of fluids in less than an hour. I also was found to have a horrible UTI (which if you don't know is a bladder infection) that was causing my pain. The doctor then informed me that if we would have waited much longer it would have turned into a kidney infection that could have really sent me into pre-term labor. Josh was content throughout the whole process, he really didnt like the machines they had to monitor him and make sure he was okay, he was rolling away from them and kicking them, so they finally took him off the heartbeat monitor and left me on to make sure I wasn't' having contractions. I was released from the hospital about 3 or 3:30ish I don't remember I was so drugged up I just remember calling my mom, grandma, and dad to tell them we were out of the hospital and then I remember going over the RIM, which was scary with crappy roads. But here I am about 48 hours later and I feel better now then I have in about a week... so what am I thankful for

1. MY wonderful husband...because without him I would have been freaking out even more than I already was sunday morning. He is truly an amazing individual and I cannot wait to see him become a dad.
2. My mom and stepdad...who drove to Jackson to sit in the hospital room for 45 minutes then drove home so they could catch New Moon... which is A-OK with me.
3. Nurse Susan... she was my nurse at the hospital and she was amazing, she was honestly concerned about me and they were trying so hard to make me confortable when I was in so much pain. She is definatly a "ROCKSTAR"